Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?: There is, and there I will him to stay, at the very least. Especially if he does not plan to stay any where else..

Q: Do you have any siblings?: I have a sibling, one who i wish to be closer too. Only time shall tell. But will it lie?

Q: Do you want children?: What caring woman would not wish for a child to dote on? I mean, i already have a wife and child... She assures me I'm having the next.
'Mummy! Mummy! I fell over!"
"Well you better get up then"
"Mummy, i grazed my arm!"
"Well you could've broken it".
"MUMMY! I broke my arm!"
"Worst things have happened at sea".

Q: Do you smile often?: More than i mean too. It's an inbuilt tactic i poesess to please people. It rarely works in Bristol. Mostly in Essex.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? Never, which baffles me, as i tie them tight the first time i ever put them on.

Q: Are your toenails painted? They always are, I enjoy a tad of pampering. I'm sure if i bought a small dog I would buy it coats and paint it's claws, perhaps even a hair clip. And a bag so it needn't walk.
Then again, i could do that with a rat.

Q: Are you a friendly person?: Outgoing is more likely the term, but I am ever so lovely... Just ask the wife.

Q: Who’s bed other than yours do you sleep in?: Now this answer involves no sex at all, so it goes without saying when i say 'The Wife's', but i do tend to stay away from my current home a fair bit. So to be fair, many a bed has taken me for rest in the past six months.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?: Black, such as the tights, the inbetweens are white... I believe that relates to my previous piece? I disgust myself at best of times!

Q: What were you doing at 9pm yesterday? Scouring between a Metal Show in the back room, a Punk in the front, and the bar in between.

Q: I can’t wait until: The evening.



1. Was your last kiss a mistake? Oh most certainly not, for i don't just give my kisses as willingly as the modern girl might. (But of course i judge that solely upon the waterfront's bars of a friday night, the rest of you, English Rose's)

2. When was the last time you cried really, really hard? Around... a week ago. I have had a couple of outbursts since the year began, all for the same reason, but the gaps between them seem unhealthy, and unmemorable.

3. Where is your father right now? Actually, for the first time ever on one of this sodding quizzes, i may truthfully say, in the same house as myself at present.

4. Oh look, 4 is missing, for it was just a silly, silly sound.

5. What is bothering you right now? The thoughts of what the next few days will bring, and of course, may not bring. Relief being one of those things. It's another trying week and we're barely into the year!

6. Have you ever made out in a car? Yes. No, that was a dream. Oh, actually, yes i have. But, it was a Van. Some one else comment this as seedy?

7. Have you ever seen somebody get shot? Thankfully, no. But keep those questions up, with the youth today these quizzes may just start solving unresolved murders.

8. When was the last time you got into a physical fight? I can't even remember, though the memory stirs, and it was drunken, and there was probably hair pulling..

9. Who do you tell everything to? The Wife, wether she listens or not, of course by marriage, is her choice.

10. Have you ever taken a picture in a bathroom mirror? Of course i have, i was born in the 90s.
In my defense however, amongst these were two memorable photos taken within the Hilton Hotel, one in the room itself, the other when we snuck down into the bar/pool area early hours. The morning that followed the night was even worse... Hilton most certainly never saw us coming.

11. Do you use big words? Will i get a gold sticker if i answer yes?

12. Have you ever been called a 'slut' or 'manwhore'? Manwhore? Man War? MANOWAR!

13. Where are you? Encased within this transportation unit that is the body I've been given.
That, and in the room i grew up in as a child.

14. Does your head hurt? No, but funnily enough, in relation to the question of where i was last night... my neck is aching like a good'n.

15. Do you like someone right now? I think I'll keep that one for the diary. Or maybe, I'll write it on a piece of chequed paper from my maths book and pass if down the table to my future wife. She'll understand and then the past her will remind me that we're in the future now and I am talking to the wrong person.

16. Have you ever rented out a hotel room? Rented. Abused. Loved if not a little... Cleaned them for a living once... Yes, me and hotel rooms go back.

17. Have you ever injected a drug? No, and i never will. Possibly one of the only serious answers within this quiz.

18. When was the last time you saw your father? Earlier on.

19. Look to your right, what is there? The door that granted my entry to this room. And a tall leopard umbrella with a curved handle, grinning at me like a cheshire cat. I grin back for knowing it was free, as i found it in lost property at the pub.

20. Do you want to be in a relationship? I'm afraid I am married.
No, that is a serious statement. I am genuinely afraid i may be in a civil partnership.

21. Any new piercings or tattoos? The newest attribution in this field is my tattoo for Suzy. X

22. Do you fight with your parents? No, but we do dinner now and then. Catch up. Never at the same time.

23. Where is the shirt you're wearing from? A charity shop, like many of the clothes i own.

25. Have you ever been in a car accident? Not a serious one, no.

26. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go somewhere? I may start doing that again, just to annoy them. Call them, ask them if i can go to the pub and sulk when they say yes. Perhaps even ask for a curfew back to my flat.

27. The thing that was bothering you before, is it still bothering you now? Of course, it shan't leave me for quite some time.

28. How often do you shower? Every day, some times twice. Unfortunately you have unearthed an OCD.

29. Do you know anyone with cancer? No, but i did.

30. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them? Yes, then my pre-judgement returned when i found out what a prick i was right to assume they were.

31. Who's bed did you sleep in last night? My own. Well, that hard, wooden mattress of a bed at the housing i am currently in.

33. Do you think the whole day is better if you smoke pot ? That's a pathetic question for a quiz clearly aimed at younger people.

34. Has anyone ever saved your life? Yes. On a couple of occasions, of course, they were merely lifegaurds or doctors... that i unfortunately now have no recollection of. And they go on living their lives just as I do, probably having forgotten of me too, and the fact that they are why I am still here today.

35. Do you get butterflies every time you kiss someone? Unfortunately no, up until most very recently that never happened. But this week i felt a turning in my gut that even the most profound writers couldn't describe.

36. Funny funny sound.

38. What are you looking forward to? A particular gig, a particular meet, a particular move.

39. Is it hard to get over someone? I have had one person it was hard to leave behind that still pangs. Unfortunately i attempt to be a somewhat romantic person... and it shows. The only reason late 08 broke my heart was because i was a weakened girl at the time due to another circumstance.

40. Did you ever go to a special learning center? I'm going to have to say no.

41. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? I thought about it, i paid for it. It got all done.

42. Does a kiss make you feel better? Now there, upon my romantic side, is a question that really would depend..

43. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? No, i made it to my bedroom no the occasions that i actually did pass out. Such the lady am i.

44. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Before! Risk i the chance to be scolded or in need of a thaw out, i think not! My current shower is much to unpredictable, i don't even trust that my toilet is beside it.

45. What did you do yesterday? This question occured earlier, must i state again, i was ruining the muscles in my neck!

46. Do you get mad or discouraged when you are wrong? Occasionally i get frustrated, much of the time I'll argue it for passionate reasons... But over all, i tend to admit when I'm wrong.
As i am an -awful- liar, i literally can't do it.

47. Have you ever thought about your death? More than i perhaps should've. But I'm sure all of us have that side.

48. Who was last person to call you? Mother or Father, one of the two.

50. Plans for tomorrow? An early rise for the gym, followed by an early breakfast in the diner... And a day to begin the many more revelations of a warped family history... Of which i am delving ever deeper.

Oh, the names are gone
Faces are hazy in mind,
And all the horses in that field are white.
Upon arrival of a familiar coach I find all it's passengers, as strangers, familiar.
And on seeing her after twelve years,
It most certainly was not her.
And on waiting for tomorrow,
After a mere ten years,
Will strangers greet me related only by name?
So what of the similiar parts we may share,
those little snippets encased within my mind as a coping method,
as the years go on i grow out of clinging on and become something of...
Another stranger.
They'd never know me if they saw me.
So why, just by knowing my name, must they care so much now?

Alright, I've given myself six hours,
And still i cannot disolve the information into manageable portions.
Here i sit, awake as i am by this hour in the city,
Willing myself to sleep.
And whilst the quiet here is almost too much,
Something i crave with so many others around me,
It lingers.
What have i become?
And where i am sure to tread next shall be just as unexpected.
I see i havent even taken in the change of decade,
for i refuse to believe it should start so abruptly!


Here i shall lie tonight, and of course not only tonight,
But before morning even comes I shall wake once more.
I know there's a call and I wish to banish it so,
Sleep through the light hours as i usually do..
But tomorrow it calls, and asks of my awareness.
It asks for smoother words,
it asks too much of me!
I fear it has always asked and yet i have mistaken it's voice for my own!
Those wonders i do, the chances i take now, are they merely myself breaking through?!
Perhaps it is not so unusual that i should seek her,
nor is it unusual that 'that' is most certainly not always the answer!

I wish you could see as i do,
I fear you might one day,
Through half a coach window i watch these horses,
to my radicle fear once more...
I see now the cows are all white too... And my will begins on them to be brown!
When come the day i see a crow all in white, and when might it happen that the white magpie follows?!
When do i lose all the colour of my youth?
That i weakly applied where ever unsuitably possible,
and when, might I ask, do the monotones shape me for norm?

I lay back again, upon white sheets, in black dress.
I feel the colour slip from my skin, but still the breath falls into my lungs.
I wonder, here, in this pale room,
Why those who did have left me?
And ponder the delicate douses of red that now fall to my bed,
as if from the brush i not so long ago was able to paint with.
Petals turn from red to white,
Here it is, my sanctuary.
Not a customer, not a stranger's glance, not a shopkeeper's glare nor an old passing friend.
Do the others know where I am?

I'm sure their thoughts this evening lie within themselves as mine.
And i wonder on the colour of their animals.